How do you feel when you are endlessly comparing your life with other people’s lives?
I looked at my life many times and found myself questioning many details. I wished many details of my life had been different. I compared my life with so many people and more specifically with people in Master Sha’s mission. I wished that I was born and raised like many great people that I have met. I wished I had learned great things and had great accomplishments. My struggle deepened when I saw there were so many talented people in the Mission who offer many great services. I looked at these people and myself and felt I was not anywhere near who they are. I felt deep depression along with some feelings of jealousy, comparisons, and competition. I continuously worked on purifying these feelings but they continued to arise here and there time after time. Lost in endless comparisons, I could not see my life having any meaning at times. I wished many times I didn’t need to learn any of the hard lessons of this lifetime.
I looked at my life many times and found myself questioning many details. I wished many details of my life had been different. I compared my life with so many people and more specifically with people in Master Sha’s mission. I wished that I was born and raised like many great people that I have met. I wished I had learned great things and had great accomplishments. My struggle deepened when I saw there were so many talented people in the Mission who offer many great services. I looked at these people and myself and felt I was not anywhere near who they are. I felt deep depression along with some feelings of jealousy, comparisons, and competition. I continuously worked on purifying these feelings but they continued to arise here and there time after time. Lost in endless comparisons, I could not see my life having any meaning at times. I wished many times I didn’t need to learn any of the hard lessons of this lifetime.
One thing I have learned from endless comparisons is that comparisons will make one feel no gratitude and no love for oneself. I also felt something was wrong all the time. I wished for peace and kept walking on the healing journey. Along the way, I felt all these deep negativities in my being really threatening the peace of my heart time after time. My beloved spiritual father taught all his advanced students to keep walking persistently and everything can transform. Master Sha also shares about doing a Forgiveness Practice when negative thoughts arise which I also continue to do.
The first thing I recognized was that I didn't want to suffer in this way anymore. I wanted to change. So the journey started from recognizing that I wanted to truly heal this part of me. I knew this part of me needed love and light. I knew that Master Sha's teachings could help me to heal.
I started to do a meditation when I was comparing myself with others. Actually this meditation came to me in the form of a vision in my 3rd eye. It really helped me to come out of this struggle. I will share this meditation with you now:
I started to visualize a golden path right in front of me. There is no one else in this particular path because its my path going to heaven. Everything else that is distracting me from this path are lessons in every shape and form. When I was struggling I really concentrated on the golden path and saw everything else for what it is, Lessons. It was not worth being distracted from this path to heaven and to go into places dark and painful, hindering me from going to light again and again. So I just focused on the golden path. I also chanted while visualizing.
WHEN THE KARMA IS CLEANSED AND THE LESSONS ARE LEARNED, THE CHANGE WILL COME AUTOMATICALLY.
A few weeks ago, I woke up with this overwhelming feeling of gratitude. I SAW MY PERFECT LIFE. I SAW EVERY DETAIL BEING PERFECT IN ITS IMPERFECTION. I SAW EVERY LESSON AS A BLESSING. FROM THE DEPTHS OF MY HEART AND SOUL, I COULD FEEL HAPPY FOR ALL I WAS, ALL I HAD AND ALL I WILL BE. THERE WAS THIS OVERWHELMING LOVE FOR GOD. I LOVE MY LIFE.
I heard from heaven to write this post. May this post be hope for you if you are struggling with the same issues. If I can heal, you can heal. Definitely I have more layers to heal and I will continue to do so. So here are some insights related to the lessons of comparisons, jealousy, and competition.
- You are your Karma. It has nothing to do with others.
- Your Karma will determine you lessons and blessings. Again it has nothing to do with others so there is no point of comparing yourself to others.
- There will be people, always, some above you and some below you. It is the yin and yang of life. At the same time, we are one.
- Always be inspired with people who you think are doing good and inspire other who can improve.
- You can always improve. Always hope for the best and strive to be the best.
I hope this post will help you. I can help you to determine your blockages if you are suffering with same sort of challenges. I do Akashic record readings. You can contact me personally. Message me on Facebook and we can set up a session. Everything can heal. Everything can heal with Master Sha's teachings. Please don't give up. Please keep walking on the Golden path, Persistently.
I love you all. Thank you for being part of my soul journey.
